Monday, October 24, 2011

Streets of Gold

So the conversation pretty much went like this- “Hey guys, so abaana is going to do a documentary of what it is actually like for a street child in Uganda, so we were thinking we might sleep on the streets with them one night.  You wanna come?” 

And we said “Heck yes.”

We got to an area where a lot of the kids sleep.  It is well lit, so I figure they feel a bit safer there at night.  The streets are always busy with boda bodas and taxis zooming down it.  Not exactly a quiet place to lay your head down.  Needless to say the white people rolling up in the middle of around 50 homeless kids caused a bit of a stir.  We set down in the middle of some of the more quiet kids.  These boys were from around 8-12.  You could tell they were newer to the streets, mostly because our faces had the same look of not really knowing how this was going to turn out.  I sit down next to a boy named Alan, and he hands me a piece of box to sit on.  And so begins our night.  He had a look on his face that I won’t ever really forget.  A bit of confusion, but mostly he was glad someone was there to do this thing with him.  He didn’t care if I had any money or even food to give him.  He was just happy someone was there to stay near him.  That’s really the messy beauty in the street kid life, a family can just happen right there, simply because you are in it together. 

Once about 2am hit, we were all pretty tired, and we knew that if we didn’t at least try and sleep neither would these little guys.  So I spread my box on the ground, huddled close with Mallory, and pretended to close my eyes.  I guess there was just so much going on around me I didn’t want to miss it.  I didn’t want to miss the small kid next to me that couldn’t seem to take his eyes off of this random girl that decided to sleep on the streets.  Sometimes he would smile, or just look at my skin and the hair on my arms (African kids just aren’t that hairy), then he just grabbed my hand and we laid there.  Eventually he fell asleep, and so did I. 

We all woke up just before the sunrise and it was time to collect scrap metal and bottles to try and get money for food.  So for around 2 hours we walked near the slums, collected lots of bottles and some scrap.  Sacks full of bottles; hand in hand we walked to a buyer.  I think the kid that made the most had 1500 shillings (roughly 55 cents).  For most of these kids that is the only other option besides stealing or starving.  They collect trash bottles or scrap metal all day just to eat, and then go back to that same street or slum to try and rest. 

Every boy’s story is different.  Some are there because their parents were abusive, some just lost their parents to disease and death, no two stories are the exact same.  The only common ground all these kids have is they don’t want to be there.  They don’t want to be scared they will get beaten by the police, they don’t want to be thirsty and hungry all the time, and they want a family.  Just like every story is different, every kid is different.  They aren’t all sweet and innocent.  Some are really mad at the world and God, some use drugs off the street to numb themselves, some are really defiant and won’t dare listen to instruction.  But that’s not really the point is it? 

The longer that I walk the slums of Kampala, Uganda, the more I realize how little I have to offer.  The more I realize every problem can’t be “fixed” by feeble human works.   The more I realize how messy some of life can really get.  The more I see the broken fragments our sin has left on the once perfect garden God created for us. 
The longer I hold a kids hand the more I see God’s faithfulness. With every child put in a safe home the more I realize God’s promises. The more I do medical on the streets, the more I feel God guiding my hands and mind.  When the day seems so uncertain, I feel the consistency of our God. 

Some smart person once said that it wasn’t necessarily the fact that Jesus healed the lepers; it was the fact that Jesus touched the lepers.  Nobody touched lepers.  It just didn’t happen- they were dirty.  But that’s what God does; he touches the “untouchables” and reaches those who seem unreachable.
So it all comes down to what the disciples asked of Jesus.  Teach us how to pray.

“May your Kingdom come, on earth as it is in Heaven”

 In Heaven, kids won’t be starving.  In Heaven, they won’t collapse from dehydration.  In Heaven, they won’t be homeless.  In Heaven, 7 year olds won’t be using drugs to escape reality.  So, Jesus doesn’t want those things for his children now, and neither do I.  Heaven starts now if we are really listening to Jesus.
I think that for a lot of us (including myself on too many occasions), we have become numb.  We think things are the way they are because they just always have been.  They haven’t always been like this, and God is setting things right again, back to the natural order of things.  And I’m excited about it. 

“4 You have been a refuge for the poor, 
   a refuge for the needy in their distress, 
a shelter from the storm 
   and a shade from the heat. 
For the breath of the ruthless 
   is like a storm driving against a wall 
 
5 and like the heat of the desert. 
You silence the uproar of foreigners; 
   as heat is reduced by the shadow of a cloud, 
   so the song of the ruthless is stilled.
 6 On this mountain the LORD Almighty will prepare 
   a feast of rich food for all peoples,
 
a banquet of aged wine—
 
   the best of meats and the finest of wines.
 
7 On this mountain he will destroy 
   the shroud that enfolds all peoples,
 
the sheet that covers all nations;
 
 
8 he will swallow up death forever. 
The Sovereign LORD will wipe away the tears
 
   from all faces;
 
he will remove his people’s disgrace
 
   from all the earth.
 
            The LORD has spoken.” –Isaiah 25:4-8

Friday, October 21, 2011

Trust.


God has been teaching me a lot about trust.  Funny thing is I thought I was pretty trusting.  I thought coming to Uganda meant that I really trusted in God’s voice speaking to me.  Over these past days I found myself living a very guarded, careful, even complacent life.  The more I read the bible the more the word TRUST jumps out at me and the more I realize I’m not really trusting my Dad.  Am I really trusting that God is going to redeem His people?  Does God really mean it when he says-

“He will swallow up death forever, Then the LORD GOD will wipe away the tears from all faces, and the disgrace of his people he will take away from all the earth” –Isaiah 25:8

God doesn’t ask for just small areas of my heart, He asks for every bit of it.  When we hear those words do we really believe it?  When He asks me to give up my life for His, He means it.  So whether you are a homeless orphan on the streets of Uganda, or a middle class family in Tennessee, God is asking you to trust Him.  If we really believe Jesus is who he said He is, if we really believe the Holy Spirit is with us, then we can trust Him. 

This morning I read about how much Paul trusted God.  He trusted Him through pain, through joy, through action and in waiting.  I think each one of us desire trust more than anything.  God created this great need in each one of us to trust Him, so when we don’t it hurts and we feel separate from what He is doing.  It hurts God even more to see us not trust Him. My prayer for myself, my family in Uganda, as well as my family back in the United States is to trust God.  I pray that we can trust the Spirit of Jesus like Paul did.

“And now, as a captive to the Spirit, I am on my way to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there, except that the Holy Spirit testifies to me in every city that imprisonment and persecutions are waiting for me.  But I do not count my life of any value to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the good news of God’s grace.” –Acts 20:22-24

Some days I get up, and I feel like a little kid learning how to walk all over again.  God’s in front of me with His arms spread wide as I make my way toward Him.  I fall a lot, sometimes I cry, sometimes I get mad, but in the end I know where I’m going.  I’m on my way to the restored Jerusalem, I’m not entirely sure what’s going to happen along the way, except that the Holy Spirit is with me every step.  Every day is an adventure here, we have made so many friends, we laugh way more then we cry, and we are all learning what trust means together.

“Commit your way to the LORD; trust him, and he will act.  He will make your vindication shine like the light, and the justice of your cause like the noonday.” Psalm 37:5-6

Friday, October 7, 2011

Beautiful are the Feet

So, kids don’t have shoes here.
 I set down a few times, wrote some paragraphs, then erased them because I was trying to write this to my friends in a way that would catch their eye, or pull at their hearts, or whatever you want to call it.  That’s dumb.  So here it is. 
There are a lot of homeless kids we have made friends with here.  We have been super blessed to clean and dress their wounds, teach them bible lessons, play games, and just be silly.  The thing is, a lot of them are in pain that they don’t have to be in.  For many, the backs of their little heals are falling off, and many of their toes are in bad shape.  It hurts them, and I know without a doubt if you saw it, you would be in pain too.  We feel other people’s pain because God lives inside us, and He hurts and cries when we do.  So it is natural to feel other’s pain.  It’s also natural and part of God’s heart to help and serve.
So, kids don’t have shoes, but they would sure love some.  If you are able and would like to donate funds for this, let me know. My email is at the top.  

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

This Little Light of Mine.

Now that the internet is working, we can start this wonderful blog journey in Uganda.  Can’t promise there won’t be lots of pauses.  Uganda is on this new plan of 12 hours of power, then 12 hours of no power, repeat.  It’s fun, and I have a feeling it may screw up the internet at some point again.
God prepared my heart before we arrived, He let me know with great care that I would feel at home here, and I do.  It is home.  We hit the ground running the morning we arrived, looked at some different projects that were going on, visited our boys from the New Life Homes in school, and then passed out.  It has been pretty busy since.  I will try to run the highlights.
We are inter-connected with a lot of other people here working on the streets.  It has been a beautiful thing to see how God’s will and plan seem to connect all of these different ministries.   He doesn’t send us out alone, or unequipped, that is evident to me now, more than ever.
We have spent a good deal of our time on the streets.  I am officially known as the nurse (some of the kids remembered us from last time).  There is no way to get around it.  These boys are sick, they have infected wounds, and they need consistent care and rehabilitation.  They come to me and they will point out their wounds, I wash it, hold their hand while the cleaning solution stings them, then try to bandage them up as best as possible.   It is the end of raining season here, so the field is quite muddy, and by the time 2 hours pass the organized medical supplies are strewn, and our feet are heavy.  I have to admit, at some points it gets crazy, and you aren’t sure what to do.  During one of those moments today the boy that was being treated started singing “This Little Light of Mine.”  Since that was the first time I understood him, I sang along, and before you knew it the 15 boys crowded around me all joined in.  I wasn’t in a field in Uganda putting on bandages; we were all in Heaven singing to our Dad.  And that’s why I’m here.  Actually, that’s why we are all here, no matter if you are here or there. 

"From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger." Psalm 8:2

So, here goes a list of the top 10 things I enjoy most about Uganda:

1.   THE BANANAS
2.   All the odd animal noises when I wake up in the morning and when I lay down to go to bed
3.   Little kids screaming “muzungu” (white person) at me
4.   Holding hands with my brothers and sisters, laughing, and crying with them
5.   THE BANANAS
6.   Playing guitar on the front porch, under the stars
7.   Laughing with our translator about the differences between Americans and Ugandans
8.   Sara’s cooking.  Plus there are always more BANANAS
9.   The sunshine
THE BANANAS.

This Little Light of Mine.

Now that the internet is working, we can start this wonderful blog journey in Uganda.  Can’t promise there won’t be lots of pauses.  Uganda is on this new plan of 12 hours of power, then 12 hours of no power, repeat.  It’s fun, and I have a feeling it may screw up the internet at some point again.
God prepared my heart before we arrived, He let me know with great care that I would feel at home here, and I do.  It is home.  We hit the ground running the morning we arrived, looked at some different projects that were going on, visited our boys from the New Life Homes in school, and then passed out.  It has been pretty busy since.  I will try to run the highlights.
We are inter-connected with a lot of other people here working on the streets.  It has been a beautiful thing to see how God’s will and plan seem to connect all of these different ministries.   He doesn’t send us out alone, or unequipped, that is evident to me now, more than ever.
We have spent a good deal of our time on the streets.  I am officially known as the nurse (some of the kids remembered us from last time).  There is no way to get around it.  These boys are sick, they have infected wounds, and they need consistent care and rehabilitation.  They come to me and they will point out their wounds, I wash it, hold their hand while the cleaning solution stings them, then try to bandage them up as best as possible.   It is the end of raining season here, so the field is quite muddy, and by the time 2 hours pass the organized medical supplies are strewn, and our feet are heavy.  I have to admit, at some points it gets crazy, and you aren’t sure what to do.  During one of those moments today the boy that was being treated started singing “This Little Light of Mine.”  Since that was the first time I understood him, I sang along, and before you knew it the 15 boys crowded around me all joined in.  I wasn’t in a field in Uganda putting on bandages; we were all in Heaven singing to our Dad.  And that’s why I’m here.  Actually, that’s why we are all here, no matter if you are here or there. 

"From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger." Psalm 8:2

So, here goes a list of the top 10 things I enjoy most about Uganda:

1.   THE BANANAS
2.   All the odd animal noises when I wake up in the morning and when I lay down to go to bed
3.   Little kids screaming “muzungu” (white person) at me
4.   Holding hands with my brothers and sisters, laughing, and crying with them
5.   THE BANANAS
6.   Playing guitar on the front porch, under the stars
7.   Laughing with our translator about the differences between Americans and Ugandans
8.   Sara’s cooking.  Plus there are always more BANANAS
9.   The sunshine
THE BANANAS.