It's not my story.

When I was 13 I thought going to Africa was when my life would truly happen, when God's plans would all start to make sense, when I would officially find my place.  As I sit in this airport wearing my wrinkled t shirt, cargo pants, and chacos (I'm pretty sure most of the UK thinks I'm wearing my PJ's, they aren't big on casual wear it seems) life is not what I thought it would look like on my way to Uganda.  My mind feels quite scattered, my head hasn't caught up with my heart, and I am asking God to help me make sense of things.  It doesn't make sense that God would ask me to go.  I'm not worthy, surely not the most qualified, and since I'm being quite honest...I feel very small.  Of course, all of these things are also pretty common with followers, that's why we follow, we don't know how to do this whole life thing on our own.  God is showing me, he has already revealed so much, and I know my life will continue to be wrecked, re-arranged, put back together for His GLORY.  HALLELUJAH.

We are in the London airport right now, waiting to fly out.  We certainly brought a lot of luggage, but my gut feeling is that I left my extra tunic and sandals at home.  It's just us and God.  I can be a little shaky and nervous, but when I sit still on the plane and close my eyes, I know I'm in the right place.  I know that when I look at the mission in front of us that it looks impossible, I know that we are small, I know that I have so much to learn, I know my life is about to change drastically, I know everything will not be as I pictured it.  And that's cool.

Thank you for all your prayers.  I am excited to set up house and meet with my brothers and sisters in Uganda again.  I am excited to walk alongside them as we do this thing called life and as we learn more about Jesus together.  I am excited to tell my friends and family their stories so we can make the world more of a family instead of a lot of borders and far off places.  I love you guys.  Here we go.

"For you shall not go out in haste, and you shall not go in flight, for the LORD will go before you, and the God of Israel will be your rear guard."  Isaiah 52:12